Tuesday, January 25, 2011

tonight is one of those nights that i have to cling to the truth more than ever that one day HE will set all things right.

Lord, You are in control. You have heard my desperate cries and i know you will reveal your sovereignty somewhere, somehow. strengthen all of us who deal with the brokenness Satan's evil schemes have caused in the lives of so many who are desperate for you. remind me to choose joy. may i see You more clearly.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

sometimes i just need to reflect on something that has happened during my day to remind me that i really do love my job. and today's reflection just happens to be a little humorous that happened at my client's today:

"mooooooooooooooom, i need toilet paper, i took a dump."
as the mom rolls her eyes, confused as to why her daughter decided to use the upstairs bathroom. she yells for her daughter to hold on and proceeds to go get her the toilet paper she needs and walks it up the stairs to her. to which i hear:
"hey mom, tell liz i just took a dump."

sometimes i hear things i could have gone without hearing for the day. today's happened to be funny, but there are other days when the things i hear are sad, disheartening, disgusting, frustrating, and a whole slew of other things. but i am thankful to be blessed with a burden for others. what a privilege it is to be chosen in the way that i am.

Monday, January 17, 2011

sometimes, i am amazed at how much control i try to hold over my life. but maybe what amazes me isn't that i try to hold control, but maybe it's that i continue trying to hold control time after time after time when i know Who is in control of my life. and what really gets me is that i don't often recognize what i am doing until i have to be broken from it yet again.

i think that i have always been a planner. i love being able to fit seeing everyone i want into a weeks time span, i love my actual planner where my hours are planned out in front of me, and i love having a schedule for my own life as to where things need to occur. and planning in itself isn't a bad thing, but when i forget to incorporate the One who actually holds me in His hands, it becomes a battle for me to relinquish control to Him. just this morning, before i got out of bed, i was laying there trying to plan how i could work out the next, oh say, 2 years of my life so that i could do everything i wanted to do in that amount of time. and now, about 45 minutes later, i am trying not to laugh at my foolishness.

and i don't say that because i have figured out how to completely hand control over to Him, because i haven't, but i have once again recognized that i am being foolish. and i have once again recognized that i am not fully living for today but the days to come, and that is not something i want.

so, as i go about my day today, i am going to try my hardest to live for today, and to not be so concerned about 2 years from now. i am going to try my hardest to be obedient to what the Lord has called me to even if i can't see the end result and trust that He truly is in full control over even the tiniest details of my life.

Monday, January 3, 2011

sometimes i just have to stop and praise the Lord for His faithfulness. these past couple weeks have by no means been a walk in the park as far as work is concerned. but as i was leaving my last client's house today, her mom was shutting the door behind me, and she said, "thanks liz, for all you've done."

my heart melted. it's the little comments like that keep me going.

and then, if that wasn't good enough, was i pulled away from their house, i was directly facing a half of a rainbow. Praise the Lord for meeting us where we are at.